DarkZen's Last Shred of Sanity

Time:	Jul 19 11:45 am.
Mood:	ecstatic.

Well fuck Jack Nicholson with Cesar Romero's Cock. Dark Knighis the shit.

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Subject:	Return of the wayward queen
Time:	May 2 5:17 pm.
Mood:	sleepy.

Ladylove has been discharged from the hospital. Their prognosis: stronger drugs need to be taken (which means daily injections.) But she is doing well. Just very exhausted. as am I.

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Subject:	Here we go again.
Time:	Apr 30 3:46 pm.
Mood:	exhausted.

I have really got to know St. Lukes Hospital. Ladylove is once again admitted into the hospital. She continually defies modern medicine. Whee fun.

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Subject:	So the reason I haven't wrote
Time:	Sep 12 5:48 pm.
Mood:	excited.

I haven't had a lot to say. Work is good. I am going to a newer bigger store that is closer to the house. My car died so I just got a brand new Honda Accord. It is a pretty black with a tan and wood interior. Ladylove got me a laptop for my birthday. All in all, life is going well. How's yours ?

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Subject:	Back Again
Time:	Dec 23 7:49 pm.
Mood:	exhausted.

Heather is back in the hospital again. Room 2129 for well-wishers. We don't know when she'll be out this time. Merry Christmas to us.

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Time:	Dec 6 3:44 pm.
Mood:	exhausted.

Many thanks for all the well wishers. If all goes well she will be home by Saturday. If you want to send her a note, you can at the St. Lukes website. Look for the egreetings section. You can also call her @ 832-355-4654.

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Time:	Dec 4 3:32 pm.
Mood:	exhausted.

Ladyfate is currently hospitalized @ St. Lukes hospital until further notice. She has a blood clot in her left lung. Send your love.

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Time:

Jul 3 4:10 pm.

Hello Gentle Readers.

I am currently quite excited in my new job. I have my own Entertainment Store to call my own (granted it is located within a much larger store, but it is still my gig.) It rocks hard! I do once again tell people what they should listen to and watch. I am traveling all across soth texas for training. I spent a week in Corpus, spent a week in San Antonio, and about to head back to Corpus. My store opens up on August 2, and there will be much in special sales. So all those in Houston that wish to go out Katy way, I'll give you the 411 for your DVD/Music/Video Game needs. (And as long as it is in print, I can order it in.)
That is about all for now. I've got laundry and packing to do.

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Time:	Jun 8 8:50 am.
Mood:	excited.

Just a quick update as I am not usually on the computer anymore. I have been offered a job to run an Entertainment Store (CDs, Movies, Games, etc.) The only plan is "to make money." That means I can set it up how I want. In addition, Sony wants to hire me to rep Playstation. What is a clown to do. Ta for now. Still at old crappy job that doesn't like to pay me what I'm worth.

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Time:

Jan 12 4:19 pm.

Hey kids!

Just a quick update. Things going good. Working for a new company(Conn's) of about beginning of November. So if you have any need for major electronics, appliances, computers, etc. let me know, I'll take care of you (that includes people in Houston, Dallas, Austin, San Antonio, Louisiana, Beaumont.)
Other than that, life has been same ol same ol. Ladylove has better updates concerning non work stuff

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Time:	Jul 24 11:35 am.
Mood:	sleepy.

Hey kids. Just a quick shout out to all Dallasites. The ladylove and I will be coming up the weekend of August 19. I've got a family thing(celebrating the mom's and my birthdays) that sunday but we have no other plans. We'd like to see everyone. Let us know who'd like to hang and we'll make the rounds all proper like.
See yuz soon.

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Time:	Jun 16 4:02 pm.
Mood:	tired.

Well, I'm off today after a half day of work. Why, you ask? DarkZen is never on the computer anymore. Well, you see, my ladylove ended up breaking her foot. I rushed home to be at her side (as is my wish and right.) The new godling had left his pawns (aka toys) around and the ladylove had ended up tripping over them. She is now content high on Pharms and watching a cheeseball movie, anxiously awaiting delivered food.
On other fronts, I am totally digging my new job. They like me well enough to put me in a more responsible position, at a location closer to the house.
Other than new job, the little godling (aka dog named Sutekh) not a whole lot else. I am involved in the org. pretty heavy now. I am in my first Coordinator Position.
All in all, pretty good goins.

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Time:

Dec 11 9:56 am.

I can remember that first meeting so well. As a teen, my friends and I used to go to this club in Ft. Worth called Joe's Garage. It was a live venue and hosted tons of local and up and coming bands. It was a friday and there was a $8 for 8 bands cover., DRI was the headliner. The second to last band was this new local group from Patego, Texas. The singer was alright (he was replaced later), but the rhythm section was primal and the guitarist was out of his mind awesome. The name of that band was Pantera.
We then heard that the guitarist and drummer (who are brothers) worked at this Pizza Inn in Arlington. With a little luck, we located it and started making the trek from Granbury to Arlington (about 45 min each ways.) We would eat pizza (usually free) and drink beer (also free and under the table) and gab with these future metal gods, amongst others. After awhile, they hit it big and moved on as did I. But every once in awhile (every year or two) I run into either Vinnie or Darrell at some music thing when I worked in a music store, or randomly, like at this Stop and Go in Arlington. We'd chat about old times and what's new.
Last time I saw them was at the release party for Pantera's Live Album (which only conveys about a quarter of the energy of their shows.) The manager of the store I worked at went with and was almost thrown out for being too much of a music geeky fanboy. Darrell looked pretty good. He was living his dream. He was in his place. It was complete zen.
He had many monikers, Diamond, Dimebag, Scumbag, SOB, etc. But to me, he was always just Darrell. The guy who hooked up some minors with free pizza and beer. The guy who worked a shitty job so that his mom wouldn't have to worry. The guy who was generous to a fault.The guy whom I haven't seen in many years, I'd like to still call a friend. Good luck my friend.

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Time:	Nov 25 2:48 am.
Mood:	loved.

Happy Birthday !!!!!!
to the most wondeful woman in my life.
You mean everything my ladylove.

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Time:	Nov 16 10:31 am.
Mood:	sleepy.

O MY mythological being that I hold nestled in my heart next to mom's apple pie and macrame that I worship and hold dear !!!!!
He is making a post.

Yes, yes. Your friendly neighborhood DarkZen does still exist. I have been quite busy dealing with teenage angst in Da middle class ghetto. Luckily for you. No one was completely in the dark about my happenings (thanks to the wonderful ladylove for keeping these Gentle Readers appraised of the doins of DarkZen.) So I won't bore you with the trials and tribulations of running a teen angst filled video store.
I won't talk about how I rejoined some organization.
I won't talk about the past election and at the travesty it hoisted upon us. ( I mean really I can't believe who became the Texas Railroad Commissioner. Belt buckles were hitting the floor that day.)
I won't talk of the horrid TV season aka My Big Fat Obnoxious Reason to watch old TV series on DVD (like Millenium)
I won't talk about the local/national sports team. Mostly because the tax monies alone spent on the various dot.com sponsored sports complexes would be better spent on the school and welfare sytems.

(psst, DarkZen, what else is there to talk about...I mean this IS Livejournal. If you don't talk about these things then you might as well do ANOTHER lemming.)

Well I suppose there is always that. But do people really want to know what sort of furrie I'd be?
So what else is there to talk about?

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Subject:	For those who neglected my Birthday...
Time:	Aug 27 3:03 pm.

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Time:

Aug 4 2:23 pm.

the scar you're most proud of	the mental ones I gave some former associates
your favourite condiment	relish
if you have freckles	here and there
your preferred method of cooking	italian
what shoes you're wearing	none at the moment
how many children you have	0 human children
the first person you french kissed	some girl at a Girl Scout camp long, long ago
your preferred breed of dog	English Bulldog
where you were born	Paso Robles, CA
what colour underwear you're wearing	PURPLE
where your keys are right now	other room
if you have split ends	nope
when you last got laid	recently
your opinion on airline food	depends on airline and meal
what cosmetic surgery you would consider	none
best kiddie playground equipment to have sex on	swing
your worst malady	I had Scarlet Fever as a child
if your mum loves your dad	nope
if you can sing well	define "sing"
what your olympic event would be	Soccer
someone you admire	Nick Cave
which country would be hardest for you to locate on a map	& Western
the last time you cried	been a bit
your most interesting sexual congress location	graveyard
part of the Sunday papers you read first	entertainment
the languages you speak	english with smatterings of German, Japanese, and Italian
the religion you were raised in	none, I was allowed to make my own religious choices
if you can draw well	not really
your favourite photograph	one of my ladylove
what you should be doing instead of this	I dunno, reading?
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

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Time:

Jul 20 1:25 pm.

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Time:

Jun 16 3:47 pm.

Stars by those I have not seen(shorter list.) @ by those that we own

@ 1 Godfather, The (1972) 9.0/10 (96529 votes)
2 Shawshank Redemption, The (1994) 8.9/10 (119442 votes)
3 Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, The (2003) 8.8/10 (65048 votes)
@ 4 Godfather: Part II, The (1974) 8.8/10 (57120 votes)
5 Schindler's List (1993) 8.7/10 (81613 votes)
* 6 Shichinin no samurai (1954) 8.7/10 (24315 votes)
7 Casablanca (1942) 8.7/10 (55277 votes)
8 Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The (2002) 8.7/10 (87040 votes)
9 Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The (2001) 8.7/10 (129299 votes)
@ 10 Star Wars (1977) 8.7/10 (113701 votes)
@ 11 Citizen Kane (1941) 8.7/10 (51252 votes)
12 One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest (1975) 8.7/10 (58077 votes)
@ 13 Dr. Strangelove or: How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb (1964) 8.6/10 (52320 votes)
@ 14 Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back (1980) 8.6/10 (87467 votes)
15 Rear Window (1954) 8.6/10 (33831 votes)
16 Pulp Fiction (1994) 8.6/10 (106488 votes)
@ 17 Raiders of the Lost Ark (1981) 8.6/10 (79116 votes)
@ 18 Usual Suspects, The (1995) 8.6/10 (86951 votes)
@ 19 Memento (2000) 8.6/10 (72268 votes)
20 North by Northwest (1959) 8.5/10 (29896 votes)
* 21 Buono, il brutto, il cattivo, Il (1966) 8.5/10 (21838 votes)
22 12 Angry Men (1957) 8.5/10 (23401 votes)
23 Lawrence of Arabia (1962) 8.5/10 (26111 votes)
@ 24 Psycho (1960) 8.5/10 (45601 votes)
25 Fabuleux destin d'Amélie Poulain, Le (2001) 8.5/10 (45615 votes)
26 It's a Wonderful Life (1946) 8.5/10 (34988 votes)
@ 27 Silence of the Lambs, The (1991) 8.5/10 (77737 votes)
28 Goodfellas (1990) 8.5/10 (55039 votes)
@ 29 American Beauty (1999) 8.4/10 (91893 votes)
* 30 Cidade de Deus (2002) 8.4/10 (12913 votes)
31 Sunset Blvd. (1950) 8.4/10 (12962 votes)
32 Vertigo (1958) 8.4/10 (28331 votes)
* 33 C'era una volta il West (1968) 8.4/10 (12109 votes)
34 Matrix, The (1999) 8.4/10 (119978 votes)
35 Apocalypse Now (1979) 8.4/10 (53344 votes)
36 To Kill a Mockingbird (1962) 8.4/10 (24977 votes)
37 Pianist, The (2002) 8.4/10 (20840 votes)
38 Third Man, The (1949) 8.4/10 (15202 votes)
39 Paths of Glory (1957) 8.4/10 (11549 votes)
40 Taxi Driver (1976) 8.3/10 (38521 votes)
@ 41 Fight Club (1999) 8.3/10 (88373 votes)
* 42 Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi (2001) 8.3/10 (16230 votes)
43 Some Like It Hot (1959) 8.3/10 (21002 votes)
44 Double Indemnity (1944) 8.3/10 (9621 votes)
45 Boot, Das (1981) 8.3/10 (24018 votes)
* 46 Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind (2004) 8.3/10 (12997 votes)
47 Singin' in the Rain (1952) 8.3/10 (16931 votes)
48 Chinatown (1974) 8.3/10 (20989 votes)
49 L.A. Confidential (1997) 8.3/10 (59433 votes)
50 M (1931) 8.3/10 (9652 votes)
51 Maltese Falcon, The (1941) 8.3/10 (16406 votes)
@ 52 Requiem for a Dream (2000) 8.3/10 (35438 votes)
53 All About Eve (1950) 8.3/10 (10900 votes)
54 Bridge on the River Kwai, The (1957) 8.3/10 (18699 votes)
@ 55 Se7en (1995) 8.3/10 (71832 votes)
@ 56 Monty Python and the Holy Grail (1975) 8.3/10 (50104 votes)
57 Rashômon (1950) 8.3/10 (8922 votes)
58 Saving Private Ryan (1998) 8.3/10 (84238 votes)
59 Raging Bull (1980) 8.2/10 (21235 votes)
@ 60 Wizard of Oz, The (1939) 8.2/10 (32163 votes)
61 Alien (1979) 8.2/10 (52140 votes)
@ 62 American History X (1998) 8.2/10 (46602 votes)
63 Sting, The (1973) 8.2/10 (19770 votes)
64 Léon (1994) 8.2/10 (40674 votes)
65 Mr. Smith Goes to Washington (1939) 8.2/10 (9605 votes)
66 Manchurian Candidate, The (1962) 8.2/10 (10835 votes)
67 Treasure of the Sierra Madre, The (1948) 8.2/10 (8558 votes)
68 Touch of Evil (1958) 8.2/10 (9777 votes)
* 69 Vita è bella, La (1997) 8.2/10 (31643 votes)
70 Finding Nemo (2003) 8.2/10 (27343 votes)
@ 71 Reservoir Dogs (1992) 8.2/10 (55258 votes)
@ 72 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968) 8.2/10 (55254 votes)
73 Modern Times (1936) 8.2/10 (8156 votes)
@ 74 Clockwork Orange, A (1971) 8.2/10 (53625 votes)
75 Great Escape, The (1963) 8.2/10 (16257 votes)
76 Kill Bill: Vol. 1 (2003) 8.2/10 (41086 votes)
77 Amadeus (1984) 8.2/10 (30952 votes)
78 Ran (1985) 8.2/10 (9390 votes)
79 On the Waterfront (1954) 8.2/10 (10072 votes)
80 Annie Hall (1977) 8.2/10 (17438 votes)
* 81 Wo hu cang long (2000) 8.2/10 (44067 votes)
82 Apartment, The (1960) 8.2/10 (9099 votes)
83 Jaws (1975) 8.2/10 (38974 votes)
84 Braveheart (1995) 8.1/10 (77736 votes)
85 High Noon (1952) 8.1/10 (10118 votes)
86 Fargo (1996) 8.1/10 (55481 votes)
87 Metropolis (1927) 8.1/10 (9552 votes)
88 Aliens (1986) 8.1/10 (53659 votes)
89 Strangers on a Train (1951) 8.1/10 (8458 votes)
@ 90 Shining, The (1980) 8.1/10 (40845 votes)
91 Blade Runner (1982) 8.1/10 (64123 votes)
92 City Lights (1931) 8.1/10 (6222 votes)
@ 93 Sixth Sense, The (1999) 8.1/10 (80967 votes)
@ 94 Donnie Darko (2001) 8.1/10 (32847 votes)
95 Great Dictator, The (1940) 8.1/10 (8127 votes)
96 Duck Soup (1933) 8.1/10 (8187 votes)
* 97 Sjunde inseglet, Det (1957) 8.1/10 (7415 votes)
98 General, The (1927) 8.1/10 (5371 votes)
99 Nuovo cinema Paradiso (1989) 8.1/10 (11400 votes)
100 Princess Bride, The (1987) 8.1/10 (45949 votes)

Like to Fall?.

Time:	May 20 4:12 pm.
Mood:	contemplative.

It's been awhile, true true. I've either had nothing fully formed to say, or my ladylove had already mentioned what has been going on in life. I have been ruminating on a few things and this outlet seems as good as any to let them out.

Job goes well, a possible promotion may be in the works in as little as a month or so. If rumor and present courses of action persist that is.
Life with ladyfate is wonderful as always.
Game progressing well, will have new news soon.
Need to get in on a new TT game...if someone is needing a player or is starting a new game...
Been thinking of many things lately... Politics, the state of the world, state of the country. I could talk of its ills and wrongs and what I think would fix them. But in the end, it doesn't really matter what I say. It is in my actions and how I live , that I can enact change in the world. It may not happen today or 10 years from now, in the end, I believe the world will come to a better place.
I had been asked by someone about those I no longer speak with (ie cut out of my life.) It is very simple. I had/have no time or energy to spend on those who do not treat me the same as I treat them. It is that simple. I keep an ear out to see if they change their outlook, although not likely as I hear that 'they' place blame on everything but themselves. I don't have time for that or them. Simple.
There are times when my heart hurts so much. I see those that I care about being abused/ridiculed/attacked by others...It hurts more when they do it to themselves. The hardest part about the latter is that nothing can be said to them that they'll hear. That is the saddest of all.
I have been thinking of starting a meditation group here in H-town. Kinda a time to reflect with others and try to expand spiritually/emotionally/etc. Just a night a week. Open to anyone and everyone. Everyone takes a turn in leading talks on religion, spirituality, etc. Kinda of a group connectiveness.

That has been what has been ruminating in my head lately. That and clowns.

I wish well on everyone. Finally this:

Thus we see that the all-important thing is not killing or giving life, drinking or not drinking, living in the town or the country, being lucky or unlucky, winning or losing. It is how we win, how we lose, how we live or die; finally, how we choose. We walk, and our religion is shown (even to the dullest and most insensitive person), in how we walk. Living in this world means choosing, and the way we choose to walk is infallibly and perfectly expressed in the walk itself.
—R. H. Blyth

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